Weirdest night ever

Yesterday was. If it's possible to be in love with a song, I am. I have heard this song on about every show ever and now it's on the Winnie the Pooh trailer. I used to love Winnie the Pooh when I was little and this song almost made me cry. I am actually going to see that movie.  I googled the song later, found it on YouTube, and actually did cry. It felt good, weirdly enough. I need to become an emotion casserole more often.

Tonight I went to my friend's little brother's birthday, and we sang Beatles songs, like we did before. It's a tradition now, ha ha ha. As is drinking smoothies and watching House when I'm feeling messed up. The next weeks are going to be fun, because I have vacation and I'm going to NH with my family, to Cali with my friend, then Chicago with my family, then Boston, then back to the gooood old Island. It should be awesome.




I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete
Oh simple thing, where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?

I'm back

Well, I have a smoothie now! I feel slightly better, having chosen raspberries and mango. But I forgot the maple syrup so I'm on my bed eating the sourest smoothie to ever be made. But it's good.
Yeah, I'm going to finish this episode and then do some homework. I have to study for a history retake, which sucks. Moan.

See ya,

Amme

I wonder if humans can deflate

I'm guessing not, but that's kind of how I'm feeling right now. I feel weird. I'm shaking, for reasons best known to the 80% of my brain I can't access, I am gaining weight, and I'm always incredibly hungry, but I'm not eating because I don't want to throw up. I am exhausted, but I can't sleep. My room is a mess and I really want to clean it but I'm like, weak. I physically can not get off this bed. I am a mess of contradictions.
I guess I'll be okay, though. I'm not dead yet. I am going to go downstairs and make a smoothie now. That's what I do when I am seriously whacked out, is make a smoothie. I'm thinking raspberries, strawberries, maybe some banana. Ha ha. Now you know I'm messed up. I hate banana.

Love and Kisses

Long time no see

Haven't posted in weeks. Finished halfway my book for school. I'll post it when I feel like it.
I am really, really sad right now. I got into my favorite high school, but no financial aid, so I probably can't go there. I'm not crying, I haven't cried in years (not since Mockingjay came out last summer, when I sobbed and sobbed and sobbed and sobbed... dont read that book. Just dont) but I'm pretty close. That and I spent last night trying not to throw up, for some random reason. I don't know why but it was awful. Now I feel like that again. Like crying and throwing up.
Also, I was going to sleep over at a friends but I can't. Now im home alone with my sister. And the power's out. The power keeps going out over the past week, I dont know why. I was reading this book and the apocalypse started out with the power blowing. And now my computer's dying and I cant charge it. There's some kind of irony here, I know it.
Im going to persevere. I am going to go clean my room now while there's still light. Maybe if I dont paint it therell be enough to send me to WHS. I can live with that actually.
Ill post my book later when the powr's back on.